Wednesday, July 16, 2008

You know that one thing that you have that you don't want anyone else to see? It's that one weakness...or flaw that you shamefully hide because you absolutely don't want anyone to see or acknowledge it.

I have one.

It scares the potatoes out of me when I think about someone calling it out on me.

And it happened yesterday.

Not just by one person, but by a collective group of people.

It hurt.

Now before you get all upset, this wasn't by anyone at our church or anything like that. But when someone calls your flaw out to you, it's a frightening experience. You're laid open. Completely bare and naked. The wound already open and salt being rubbed into it. It's not a fun experience. Over and over again I run the words through my mind like a broken record and each time the sting is still there.

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I'm not perfect. As I frequented mutter to myself "I've yet to master the ability to be superhuman." I still get things wrong and will continue to get things wrong.

There is comfort, however, in the words of Jesus and Paul:

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." - 1st Corinthians 12:9,10

And in the words of the wise Hannah Montana: "Nobody's perfect, I gotta work it again and again till I get it right."


katbradley said...

Only ONE??? Dang, you're good!!!

katbradley said...

I try - I really do - to make it very clear when expressing mere opinion. That's what this is; here's what I think:

I think the body of Christ, especially the local congregation, is the ONE place where we should be able to be ourselves, express our real feelings, and not put on a show for the sake of those who opt to condemn, 'cause there ought not be any of those. Why should we have to worry about condemnation from our church family when our Lord Himself does no such thing to His children? I don't know; I guess we deem it in our job description, but frankly, that's WAY above our pay scale.

Dj said...

I agree completely.

Even the apostles laid themselves out in the open. The Gospels are vividly open and honest about the dumb things the apostles did. It had to hurt Peter to relate those stories where he blew it to the Gospel writers, but he did it anyway because it was important to be transparent.